16 oct

I m left with a few more days to work at the centre...after whic i will be back to school...i cant wait to go back to school but i dun know want to do any assignments or project!! they are such a turn off!!! But whateve still i have to do them to achieve good grades and get into a uni...I was planning to join pcf little wings jurong central and then get a scholarship for my degree...I dun mind takibng my degree at SIM for 4 years...i can afford the time as i m still young...i want to work n study at the same time to save up for my future...i want to get marry early but before i can do so i need to ensure that i have saving in my acc before i can lead a peaceful life with my future husband. We both have planned abou the future and that we have to work hard now to relax in future...with both of us having a degree...life will be much easier in future...we have so many things we want in life...a house of our own after marriage...a car of our own...a stable job for the both of us...after which have kids in future... i want our kids to have a good life...not being pampered but all essential are met..


i know very well that you are very concern of our future...so am i...i will work hard to ensure that all our plan can be carried out...



i love u, fazul idham...

13 Oct 2010

Its the second day ur in camp...

its 12.20 am as of now...

I mish u so much...

How i wish im in ur arms rightnow...
you huggin me to sleep..
you huggin me so tightly...
Ur warmth really keep me secure through the nite...
jus like that nite when u hug me so tightly..

REALLY HOPE THAT THE Next 18 Days Will Be FAST

7 Oct 2010

Until todae I m not sure of wat is going on between us. I really enjoyed myself on wednesday. However when i start to think of all the problems, it made me worry. I m really feeling very insecure. Never had such a feeling before. I get frustrated easily as i dun want to lose you. You mean so much to me that I dun want to let you go under any circumstances. Please syg...in what ever situation, i dun want to leave you.

I will fight to the end with whoever that tries to break us apart.

All i know is that, my emotions are pretty hetic at the moment. I need assurance from you dear before you book in again and attend your ocs confinment for 3 weeks. By the next time I meet you, it will be november. Without u by my side for the 3 weeks, i need ur assurance to hold on to.

5 Oct

It been two days and the issue is still on my mind. I jus dun know wat is going on. You seems to have move away. I thought i was the one, u assure me that i would be the one but now things seem to change, i m really lost. please help me. i really need your help and guidance. I am a person who give in , i m sure u know me well enuf. I really asked myslef, wat is going on. Why is the whole situation becoming bad. We have travel a distance and we have assured one abother that we will be there. At this moment, i m so lost that i cant even think properly. I dun want to lose you. I m try my very best to meet ur mum expectation. I need your trust. I need your concern. I need your guidance. I need all this to improve myself to be with you.

I never want to be deleted from your life. It has always been a dream to be with you. To live with you for the rest of my life. There have been many things I learnt from you. You lit my life with your light. You educate me. You change me for the better. I really appreciate all the things you have done to change me for the better. I just have a small request, please lets clear this issue before it gets bigger and more complicated.

2 Oct 2010

It took us weeks to train...polish the dance steps ...shout the counting every now and then...until the last very day we still have to train. Wanna thank Ms Liza Foong a million for the trust she have towards me to train the children. When the day come, i jus have to relax back an d enjoy the whole concert.

Photos capture during the concert.

More pictures to come......

3 Oct 2010

Been months I last check my blog.... Gosh time fly so fast that it is going to be the end of another year..I will start my final semester in another 3 weeks and have to say goodbye again to the children at myt centre but i will come back as a teacher...I want the school to help me in getting a scholarship for my degree. I dun mind waiting for 4 years to take the degree. In that way, I can save money as i sch.

When out with hunnie jus now. YIpppeeee!!!! We are going to celebrate our 9 mth together this sat but sadly he wont be ard but it okies...He is goin oversea to attend some family matter. N on sun i have a wedding to attend at orchid country club...and the best part, he jus pop n by the time, he have to go for his ocs confinement for 3 weeks...now single for 21 days...last 4 mth was 14 days n now up by 7 days...it is okies...another challenge for the both of us...insyaallah , we will be stong to go through the 21 days. I pray that he will be safe n he will be able to go through his ocs training smoothly.

Photos taken during outing

21 March 2010

I jus reached home from werk. Thought that i would be talking to him for a moment but receive a text from him tell me that he is going to sleep. Frankly speaking, i dun mind if he wants to sleep ealry coz i understand of his working environment.

I m jus a little upset that we could not talk about the tiny winy problem we are facing right now. I believe that he is waiting for the right time to talk about the issue. I agree that it is important for couples to find the right time before they open a topic for discussion and the best time is when both parties are cooled down and ready for discussion to hear each other opinion.

I analyse ur blog and i have some thoughts about it. I would prefer to tell u when we meet. I analyse and evaluated and came to a conclusion about the problem and i wish to share it with u.

As u r reading this post, i hope that u will realise that i m pretty serious about the relationship or else i will not bother and jus walk away from the situation and move on in life. Life is not as easy as one, two and three . we have to take things slow and one step at a time. There is no magic to life. It goes slow and uneven.